COMPASHA MAMA
My Story:
the Initiation of My Mission
I grew up in a high-achieving family that hid deep disfunction
& narcissistic abuse. Behind closed doors
my autonomy was punished out of me.
Every Sunday, we attended a Christian cult
where shame & guilt were weaponized as tools for control,
further grooming me for rape culture.
When I was 11, I was molested by a neighbor,
but when I spoke up, nothing was done.
At 19, I was raped at a frat party & then threatened to stay silent.
In my 20’s I became a professional big mountain freeskier & mountaineer.
I skied in competitions around the world, had big name sponsors,
published photos, billboards, & lots of broken bones.
I trained hard & partied harder,
but the more I achieved,
the more I craved.
my life became a whirlwind of dissociation & addiction.
flashy on the outside & numb on the inside.
Underneath the facade of “living the dream”
I was living a nightmare.
within the ski industry's heavy party culture
disregard for the body,
misogyny & rape were commonplace.
my unresolved trauma was magnetic to sexual predators.
every time I was raped,
I would bury it by pushing harder in my ski career.
Eventually, it all caught up to me.
Barely surviving a drug overdose,
I prayed to God through body convulsions...
“If I live, I promise to do whatever it takes to love myself."
As the 2017 solar eclipse approached,
I was intuitively guided to marry my Soul.
At the height of the eclipse, I raised my hands to the sky.
In that monumental moment,
I united with my Soul's true name & purpose:
Compasha Mama,
Angel of Radical Compassion
For the last 9 years,
I've been purifying my body from the trauma of rape,
while transforming everything I survived into spiritual gold.
I got sober from all substances, &
stepped away from plant medicine to ground my power
& focus on my mastery of subtle energy.
Now, I’m a somatic based practitioner,
certified in emotional freedom technique,
Attunement Therapy, Emotion Code,
Somatic Parts Work, & Theta Healing
& have facilitated hundreds of healing ceremonies.
In my journey to heal ,
I summoned the same courage I harnessed when I skied
to face the monstrous pain within me.
It was scary at first,
but eventually the pain revealed itself to be a benevolent dragon.
And now,
me & this dragon are one.
Her wise love & ancient power guide me everyday.
Her vast beauty & primordial gifts enchant & inspire me,
& Her fierce compassion consumes me.
Through her grace,
I reclaimed my sovereignty, restored my innocence,
& reinstated templates of devotion, protection
& fearless leadership.
Now that I broke the cycle,
I support survivors with the same prayer.
I want to introduce you to your own Divine Dragon Soul.
The one that isn’t afraid of it's power
because it will do revolutionary things with it.
it's time holy one,
to unfurl your wings
reclaim your roar
& unleash your legacy of light.
THE DRAGON WITHIN YOU IS WAITING.
