COMPASHA MAMA
My Story:
the Initiation of My Mission
I grew up in a high-achieving family that hid deep disfunction
& narcissistic abuse. Behind closed doors
my autonomy was punished out of me.
Every Sunday, we attended a Christian cult
where shame & guilt were weaponized as tools for control,
further grooming me for rape culture.
When I was 11, I was molested by a neighbor,
but when I spoke up, nothing was done.
At 19, I was raped at a frat party & then threatened to stay silent.
In my 20’s I became a professional big mountain freeskier & mountaineer.
I skied in competitions around the world, had big name sponsors,
published photos, billboards, & lots of broken bones.
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I trained hard & partied harder,
but the more I achieved,
the more I craved.
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my life became a whirlwind of dissociation & addiction.
flashy on the outside & numb on the inside.
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​Underneath the facade of “living the dream”
I was living a nightmare.
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within the ski industry's heavy party culture
disregard for the body,
misogyny & rape were commonplace.
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my unresolved trauma was magnetic to sexual predators.​
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every time I was raped,
I would bury it by pushing harder in my ski career.
​Eventually, it all caught up to me.
Barely surviving a drug overdose,
I prayed to God through body convulsions...
“If I live, I promise to do whatever it takes to love myself."
As the 2017 solar eclipse approached,
I was intuitively guided to marry my Soul.
At the height of the eclipse, I raised my hands to the sky.
In that monumental moment,
I united with my Soul's true name & purpose:
Compasha Mama,
Angel of Radical Compassion
For the last 9 years,
I've been purifying my body from the trauma of rape,
while transforming everything I survived into spiritual gold.
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I got sober from all substances, &
stepped away from plant medicine to ground my power
& focus on my mastery of subtle energy.
Now, I’m a somatic based practitioner,
certified in emotional freedom technique,
Attunement Therapy, Emotion Code,
Somatic Parts Work, & Theta Healing
& have facilitated hundreds of healing ceremonies.
In my journey to heal ,
I summoned the same courage I harnessed when I skied
to face the monstrous pain within me.
It was scary at first,
but eventually the pain revealed itself to be a benevolent dragon.
And now,
me & this dragon are one.
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Her wise love & ancient power guide me everyday.
Her vast beauty & primordial gifts enchant & inspire me,
& Her fierce compassion consumes me.
Through her grace,
I reclaimed my sovereignty, restored my innocence,
& reinstated templates of devotion, protection
& fearless leadership.
Now that I broke the cycle,
I support survivors with the same prayer.
I want to introduce you to your own Divine Dragon Soul.
The one that isn’t afraid of it's power
because it will do revolutionary things with it.​
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it's time holy one,
to unfurl your wings
reclaim your roar
& unleash your legacy of light.
THE DRAGON WITHIN YOU IS WAITING.
